I feel depressed.
My boyfriend is moving away for a few months. How am I going to be able to handle this? Is this meant to be?
On the flipside, CVS called me back! He said that the pharmacy manager will be in contact with me tomorrow to set up another interview which is amazing. I thank God for this opportunity.
With good comes bad. I just need to learn how to balance the two.
Today I have a lot of things I need to do. I can feel all the things I need to do piling up in my head, along with all the things I want to do.
I’ve been putting off a lot of schoolwork this semester. I am going to regret this when I start typing a 7-page research paper the night before it’s due. That’s just how I am though! I want to change but I never get around to doing it.
True words of a procrastinator.
I’m patiently waiting for a call back from CVS determining whether I am an employee or not. I want the job so bad! I’m really hoping for a pharmacy job but I would also be content with just a cashier job.
This is how I feel. Praying for my phone to ring.
I sit and ponder whether or not my dilemmas matter. In the midst of the world around me, are my problems important? Out of curiosity this question often comes into my mind. Does it really matter?
When my eyelids swell from the tears. I wonder, does it really matter? When I breathe so hard, but can’t catch a breath, does it really matter?
The squabbles life brings us seem so petty in the realism of this world. People starving, soldiers dying, violence occurring. Does my life really matter?
Does anyone even know my name? Does anyone ever enjoy my face? Am I good enough for this world? Does it really matter?
In life we ask this question, only to hear no answer. I lift up my eyes and look to the sky for some sort of reply. Nothing, just more pain. On towards the next day.
Does it really matter?
